My Hart,minD N sOUL

kakiku sakit

2005-04-05T05:44:00.000-07:00

waduh!waduh!kakiku sakit.siap ader luka tuh..tapi kecik je luka tuh..but still?!!!pedih tuh.lebam lagik!biru purple hijau sume color ader!cume tak cukup jadik color2 pelangi je...:P..anyhow, alkisah nyer bermula hari khamis yg lalu...my father tgh mengemas brg2 dia to make way for my brother(baru je grad!) simpan brg2 dia lak...yg my bro nie buat dek je laaa tgk my dad kemas.then,pas my dad berpeluh2 mengemas..my dad cakap laa"wan,amik this cupboard..simpan brg!"...then, my bro jawab "laa,tak payah laa..wan dah siap kemas pun!"...bengang laa my dad tuh dgr!suddenly, dia amik "mega tv nye decoder"(laa..zaman2 dulu nyer service provider before astro) n campak ke tepi...tanpa disedari,mende tuh pun landing atas kaki aku..dia tak sedar pun anak dia nie dok belah belakang tepi dia...apa lagi..aku terdiam terpaku..sakit teramat sangat!!!darah mula mengalir(x de laa membuak2!!saje nak berdramatik!)...aku terus masuk bilik n amik minyak afiat..my mom bising laa kat my dad...tp i dont even blame him coz die tak perasan i der kat situh pun...sehingga ke saat aku menulis blog nie,kakiku masih sakit..dah laa malam td,aku terletak laptop elok2 landing atas tempat sakit tuh..meraung ahh kesakitan!terpaksa p merayau cari minyak...ptg smlm lak,p lawat si andy tuh kat hospital..aku siap ade hajat test pakai tongkat dia tuh..heheh...kaki sakit kan!tp jln ok..cuma if sentuh kat tmpt sakit tuh,mmg pedih+berdenyut+sakittttttttttt......doa2kan lah kakiku sembuh cepat!tima kasih!

me n my unstable emotion

2005-03-29T13:57:00.000-08:00

It has been like ages tak post pape kat blog nie rite?!!!too bz - caught up with exams and project.mmm...actually, me not in a good mood either...i just received an email from a long lost friend..mm..he doesn't deserve to b call as a fren pun...it should b worse than that..much much worse!!!but i realise that there is no use in berdendam but wat da heck?he is my past and will always b..y he keep haunting me?y can he leaves me alone?y keep probing me with questions?questions that i do have the answers but i don't even feel in sharing it with him...i want him to get the message that plzz...get ur butt out of my life!!!i already forgotten bout him...if i teringat pun, it is only bout me hating him n the "sweet" memories that r truly sour!!!not i didn't warn him,i did!!!but he keeps running chasing me...he sent me a msg thru friendster!i did write back n pour all my hatred n pleads that he will stop but the best thing is, i deleted it...but it is obvious, that he will not rest till he got wat he has asked from me...arghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hati KU YG LaRa

2005-03-08T15:46:00.000-08:00

can anyone suggest me a way or ways to mengubat hati ku yg lara nie?but frankly no one can..except the one yg membuat hati ku jd begini...but the best thing is that..(let call that someone by A)...this A doesn't even know that dia membuat hati ku lara..(bahasa melayu habih nie..since if i'm using english,when to refer to A-terpaksa reveal gender die...:P..bijak kan kawan nie?!!!!heheh)...mengapa dan kenapa?to be around A is so nice..to talk to A is s'thin that i'm lookin forward too... A cheers up my days!!!A does it in *** own way...(***...her or his?!!tah laaa...secret!)...just that me missing hanging out with A...guess that wat makes my heart lara...heheh...A is someone that i called as a friend.......(a fact that can never change!)

HeCtiC sUNdAy!!!

2005-03-07T17:46:00.000-08:00

pening...pening...pening kepala ku!!!towards d end of sem nih,terlalu byk keje need to b settle kan...really makin my life miserable!rite now pun,terasa kepala ku sewel...today je,i dok ulang-alik e0,e1,e2,e4,e5(to memendekkan citer-sort of like one whole engineering ku berjln)...cramp gilak kakiku!any1 nak tolong urutkan?:P
tambahan lagi(cheh!!!berbahasa...),yesterday, i helped my dad to panjat bumbung rumah coz pipe hujan tuh tersumbat n caused a little 'tsunami' kat dlm rumah kitaorg..heheh..macam ape je kan?!!!time tuh it was raining so heavily n my mom was alone in d house since papa went to keje.tiba2 mama tgk kat tangga, air turun curah2!!!the upper floor habih flooded with water..tp x tinggi pun..still?!!!!sampai masuk bilik i...habih ler brg2 bawah katil i....:(sob..sob...)
luckily,mommy tak panic...puas laa my mom n dad mengemas rumah pas tuh.....
rase extra berani laa time panjat bumbung rumah tuh..may b for some, it may not b a big deal..but for me,yg mmg gayat with heights ni..kire seram gak laa...ku beranikan diri semata-mata to help my dad...thus, after repair n kuarkan all those mende yg tersumbat inside the pipe,kirenyer mission accomplished!!!
the best part of the story when bile tau?!!when my dad said "sian sayang abah nih...".."panas2 kene tolong"...coz rite after that i'm supposed to drive back to uia..tp tak gak..since i p lak bawak my mom to giant n baker's cottage to buy stuffs...sayang family!!!
tp tis morning i citer laa kat some'1 nih..end up, he asked me ape tau.."wat actually u want from ur dad?"....i was like.......???!!!geram nyer!!!ikhlas tau...(tp if boleh,nak gak minta calculator baru from my dad!!!)...hampehhhhhhhh.....
ape-ape pun...kirenyer, yesterday was a very hectic day!!!:))))))

DaDDY

2005-03-05T23:30:00.000-08:00

wat a tiring day!actually me at home now.ptg td, i helped my dad cat rumah...not one whole house but side dinding kat tepi rumah.still?!memenatkan!!!rite after that i washed my cute yellow kelisa n that big naza ria car...gosh?!!!panas2 giler...but it was fun since i got to sort of like hang-out ngan my dad...the thought of doin things together is really overwhelming for me.frankly, i love my family so much!sape tak sayang pun rite?but..really...they r the ones that i loved the most including my beloved boy(bakal masuk jadi family wat?!:))...heheh...just can't wait for that moment?!long way to go....tapi...

anyhow, it was nice to make him(my dad) happy...usually, he won't let me to help..not that he didn't want me to but he said that if i tolong pun, mengacau je..heheh..tgh2 panas matahari terik menyinari muka aku (arghhhh!!!burnnnnn!!!)..tp i'll do anything just to make him proud of me!:)
that's my promise to u,daddy!!!

keBebasaN....?

2005-03-05T23:20:00.000-08:00

FREEDOM by ASHANTI

So i'm gonna close my eyes(my eyes)
And i'm gonna live my life(my life)
Despite what you think
i'm be free
cause i'm be me

see i ain't never think that i would have a situation
where the people around me
just envy i must replace em
see i always thought that the people who watched me grow
would want to see me grow
fo'sho but little did i know
they ain't never really wanna see me (smiling)
they couldn't take the fact that i was really (shining)
and in my heart i know they wishing i would stop
cause they don't want me to rise and be on top
all that jealousy amd hate
could be rite in front of your face
and it's gonna for you to see
but it ain't your fault so just let it be

So i'm gonna close my eyes(my eyes)
And i'm gonna live my life(my life)
Despite what you think
i'm be free
cause i'm be me

see everybody wanna have something to talk about
so they pointing their fingers and always running their mouth
know matter how u try to satisfy someone else
giving so much of yourself your love
but it's never enough
the more you give the more they want
and they ain't happy
and they don't see all that you do to make em happy
they don't appreciate it until you walk away
but you don't wanna hear it by now it's too late
all that jealousy and hate
could be right in front of your face
and it's gonna for you to see
but it ain't your fault so just let it be

So i'm gonna close my eyes(my eyes)
And i'm gonna live my life(my life)
Despite what you think
i'm be free
cause i'm be me

mY IPAC

2005-02-22T16:30:00.000-08:00

wat can i say bout my ipac?!..actually, my dad gave it to me..coz i've decided not to join the JAPAN TRIP (under kuliyyah of engineering,iium)...so..ape kaitan huh?!!!jap..nak citer laa nih..:P!my dad promised to give me a dot..dot..dot..amount of spend money if i join the trip...so,since dah x jd,i claim laa rm tuh..:)!in my mind that time,i dah kire2 tuh go for shopping,shopping, n shopping...iye,sudah kaya!!!tp i guess, my dad lg smart laa..like he already sense my future plan of that money...he made a deal..he will not give me cash instead he will gimme his ipac..i was like?!no way!!!i want cash!!!after 2 days merajuk..i pun terima laa with open heart..since my dad pun bermasam muke....kerana sayang,ku turutkan kehendak die..so dpt laa ipac kesayangan nie..!!!
balik uia,aku tak menunjuk2 pun kat org..buat diam je kat bilik!!!but ader laa minah sorang nie..telinga tajam!!!one nite after,she went to my room n asked me "ooo....ade hp baru eh?!"<---ayat yg lebih kurang laa!:)...coz she heard a diff sound-ringtone!
malas nak kecoh2!!!nanti menunjuk2lak!!!:P
tp aku sayang giler laa kat ipac nie...eventhough aku tak fully utilize lg mende nih...for eg;never know that ipac nie ader infrared...stupid huh?!!mane laa tau coz die tulih situ..beam..is kind of a new term ..for me laa..!!!
lg 1 yg aku totally looking forward to is to "wifi"...konon nye nak p wifi ngan abg ap kat jj..dah siap beli "frappucino n a slice of chocolate cake" dah..when we got to know that kat starbucks jj tak de lg hotspot2 nie....kecewa giler!!!
fuh...i think i better stop..since my main intention comin to software lab is to siapkan auto lab report....so..till the next entry...ta-ta!!!

Me &My IgNoRaNcE

2005-02-19T23:40:00.000-08:00

today my mom cooked us mee curry...it was delicious esp after adding "limau byk2"...perah limau,i mean...into it!knowing me...mkn pape pun,sure kene perah limau...if not, the food won't b that delicious..it will be mm..just fine..i guess?!anyhow,my uncle and aunt with their 2 kids came this evening n we ate together...the best thing,my aunt asked me "mee nie along masak ke?if along masak kene laa i tambah lebih!"..i was like..."no...it was mummy yg masak"..isn't it obvious?!!me do not know how to cook!!!i love food n i always want to cook my own signature recipes but it always end up either washing the dishes or just kemas2 the table...me..myself...s'times my mom just got so angry with me bout my "do not know how to cook" thing..but i just can't help it!!!really want to learn.....but..malas kot?!!!me so ashame of myself in writing this confession...but wat da heck?!!the thought of impressing mak mentua mmg laa scary esp for me!but lambat lg to get married!like 4 years from now...heheheh....
somehow; along the road..i have to start learning how to cook!me n my ignorance!!!......:)

uNsTaBLe hEart,MinD and SouL

2005-02-19T00:45:00.000-08:00

someone has told me before...i have a lot of secrets in me that i kept to myself...n somehow,it affects my emotion badly...i can easily shed a tear or even 'terasa'...but wat had happen back then at wira,frankly speaking..it doesn't even bother me anymore...there r a hell lots of thing that r more imp to b ponder upon..n with that, i would like to say how sorry i am for acting like a jerk!!!

aT LasT

2005-02-18T00:20:00.000-08:00

i owe my thankfulness to Allah SWT for giving me a chance to at last posting the first entry for my blog..after nearly 45 agonizing unsatisfying hours of waiting and gazing upon a blank screen,i today managed to type and even share my first thought in this page....hehehe.....so skema lak?!!!just ain't me!!!:P...

k laa...guess..after this, u guys will b seeing lotta stuffs in my blog..hopefully!if i have time to spare laaa....hehehe..like bz sgt huh?!!!!

so.....till the day i have the urge to write again...c yah!!!